Update: exercise

So I've been in this uncertain state lately- a state of neglected indecision which I've been unable to counter for my inability to diagnose the cause. It's been this teetering of options, each switching out every moment or so; each option no more alluring than the other yet equally as compelling as the last. The whole things is an emotional sedative, putting all but my basic sentiments to rest as I move through the hours, like a projection light watches snap-shot moments flicker past without a care for contemplation. I struggle to set goals because I don't know which to aim for. I'm massively demotivated because I can't find a direction that motivates me. I'm at a cross-roads with no sign and no compass. But that's enough of that- I'm getting better, which is why I'm writing today!

So, surprise surprise, the thing I've avoided doing for so long has been the light I needed to find the way... so to speak. I started exercising. I mean, I've only been exercising today... for about 15 minutes... when I went jogging before work. But that set the precedent for the whole day! Since, I've felt as thought I'm filled with energy, far more positive and surprisingly more decisive. Obviously I don't expect this to be the miracle cure to my problems, but it should certainly help me to stay a little more positive and driven, hopefully leading to a snowball effect where I just get better and better instead of peaking high then dipping low, like a rudimentary line graph depicted in some child's picture book.

The purpose for posting this was simply to update you on how my journey is going; I have less and less to say about my condition lately, and even less to advise. The reason for this is solely the result of the way I've felt, which I addressed in the first paragraph- I stagnated. Anyway, guys, try exercise. I may have only done a day of it but I already feel a little better and I can see how I might apply it to to my life in order to improve both my mental and physical state. Exercise is no cure, but it will certainly help.

Take care :)